society

Society makes you do crazy things doesn’t it?

It makes you want to leave the house

It makes you want to crawl back into the house

It makes you smoke

It makes you drink

It makes you do a bunch of great things

It makes you think too little

It makes you think too much

It makes you want to do all things and everything

It makes you want to do nothing at all

Society

All hail society.

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future // past

embedded in me is the fear of the future

or is it the past

they both coincide so easily now

I can’t tell the difference between this and the last

fear of being left alone

fear of being unsure

what for is this fear

shall we make of it a leer?

we talk about the future

the present at times too

but somehow the past just catches up with you

I don’t know how to handle

I don’t know what to do

I suppose any day above ground will get us through

appreciate

appreciate while you can

because feelings fleet and people go

that’s all you have.

An Ode to 2017

Well, where do I begin

It was January the 18th

It was then and there did I experience

The start of the unfolding

It was the first day of college

The beginning of beginnings

I was so nervous, never thought I’d fit in cause

It takes time

For things to be fine

 

January went by quickly

Then came the month of February

My high school friends threw me a party

Old college mates came to show me strength

It was probably the best birthday

of birthdays that ever came

I was grateful for the world

I kept on saying

It takes time

For things to be fine

True it takes time

 

February passed by then came the month of March

That was when I met the boy that taught me what we had was lust

Oh I’ve never felt ashamed

but the reason why it brought in change

was to teach me that in my life

you mustn’t give yourself away

for things to be okay

takes time

 

April went by fast

I don’t remember what happened then

May came by too

Boy I really hated school

It was then that you went mute

And I really hated you

 

June came and went by like a train

I know that was the month of exams

And also Ramadan

Where I didn’t do as much

Man I wish I had done more than that

Things became a mess back then

The family disarrayed

and ended up feeling betrayed

 

July was the start of a new semester

New feelings and new adventure

Friendships built to last

whatever we went weather

but some had gone away

couldn’t handle bout the change

 

August came and brought a gift

Someone to hold on and lift

spirits up high in the sky

Definitely not what I had in mind

What a surprise it turned to be

Finally had someone for me

 

September was when the pressure came

CCTs and other things

but I have to admit

it was pretty fun and lit

 

then came Halloween

boy October was a treat

dressed up and brought a feat

parties and dancing till we were beat

 

November was the immense pressure

exams were but a month away

assignments here and all over

sleep was claimed as a leisure

it was there and then

did we realise near of end

 

December was here and we weren’t ready

deadlines came at the steady

5 minutes late

as long as we passed it in

exams were there at the bay

then they passed like a fray

 

Graduation came

and it felt like such a daze

We were finally done with our year

it wasn’t all happy tears

some won’t be here next year

but that is the taste

of what life has us trained

I suppose it isn’t the same

we become attached and unattained

but what is there to do

except look forward to a newer you

 

I guess that’s all left to say

as the old year leaves and the newer stays

I’m glad you came anyway

knew you wanted to go away

thank you for the life

that you’ve managed to survive

 

This is an ode to you, and you,

But also an ode to me too

A lot of things has changed

And I suppose that’s part of fate

That’s it from me for now

I’ll see you in the New Year’s den

Watch me take a bow

You’ll see me back here again

With a newer soul and whole

Replenished and full of gold

 

In the end it all takes time ;

It takes time to be okay

And it’s okay to take time.

It’s okay to take time.

perception

my perception of love has changed a lot throughout the years

what once I thought was a fairytale ending is now a consuming effort

I suppose it has to do with the experiences I’ve faced and the exposure I’ve been plagued

how does a broken person unsee the evil that comes with that of what is supposed to be

love.

 

uncertainty is a norm

something that I expect, time and time again

I suppose you can say

that uncertainty

is the only thing that is a certainty