oh how people think they can damage you and walk away
how they mutilate you with their words and expect you to be okay
I’ve come too far to feel remorse for what I say
because by the end of time you’ll feel it day by day
I’m done with the racist comments and unnecessary statements
just know what’s done will come back to you,
that is blatant.
the act of betrayal is not uncommon
even more so by blood ties
you see, this happens much too often
submerged by countless white lies
the act of forgiveness is uncommon
sorry, the hardest word.
their hearts are cold and rotten
they’ll pretend it’s something unheard.
the act of acceptance is strenuous
one not many can master
often the situations are hazardous
recurrently, caused by disaster.
you do not get to talk to me like you used to.
to feign innocence
you do not get to act like nothing happened
like everything goes back to normal
you do not get to do that
because for months we were left without you
and you expect us to just let you waltz back into our lives
with not so much as an apology
and not so little as a goodbye
blinded by rage
heart rate elevated by pain
skin burns like fire
almost reaching the depths of insane
no longer is there peace to retain
a heart that once loved in pain
played it all like it was a game
watch me as I put you to shame.
i’ll blind you and burn you
turn your ashes to dust
sit in silence and watch
the mistake you made in breaking my trust.
pick up the sword you so wanted to shield
come kneel before me and yield
lust and power, watch you burn with pain
in that you’ll see
the rage I’ve so silently embedded in me.
the world is so tiring to me.
my heart wants all but to flee
the pain stakes through the heart
my pulses rising up the chart.
one day it’ll all be too late
for I’ll be waiting at heaven’s gate
too soon, too fast they will mourn
too bad it’s only after i’m gone.
i think it’s time I stop pretending
things are okay.
when in truth things are not.
and i feel nothing but pain.
and some days i feel nothing at all
and this is what happens
when you look for things to fill
the vast space in your heart
you fill yourself with you
and no thing else
and no one but you.
I’m done with everything, I say,
I can’t go about with this by day.
Triggers aren’t that far at bay
You’ll understand what I say.
I can no longer tolerate the nonsense
that comes about with this ignorance.
Everything too much for me to feel
please, place upon me a shield.
I’m done, my heart is sealed.